Goodbye my sweet little spotted friend.

[KCat]

I am not ready to talk at length, but Bayta attacked me Sunday night and again Monday morning. Sunday she jumped on me during one of her terrified tirades. Monday a.m. she bit the cordless phone I tried to get between her teeth and my body.

Monday at noon she was relieved of her confusion and fear. It was the hardest decision I've ever made and yet as I saw the pre-sedation kick in and saw her truly relaxed for the first time in weeks, the second step of letting her go suddenly made complete sense. The light had gone out from her eyes for several weeks. Her living in constant anxiety just wasn't fair to her.

Thank you to everyone here for your support as I tried to come to grips with whatever was attacking her brain. I know she is at peace. When I can handle it, I will put up a memorial page on my website. Right now, going through pictures is too hard.

Again, thank you.
KCat

[lassie]

Take care x

[3 goldens]

I am so sorry you had to make this horrible defision, but you did the right thing for your precious girl. To me there is a difference being being alive and living. She was alive, but she was not lliving, not really, in that state. What good is being alive if you are in constant pain, fear, whatever. That isn't living. It is just being alive, or more correctly put, existing. My heart goes out to you as I have had to make that decision twice, 9 years ago with my 12 1/2 year old irish Setter, and 13 years before that with my first irish who had a spinal infection that couldn't be cured. I let my first one suffer to long in hopes for a cure, but let my other go early. he enjoyed life up until the end.

[skunkstripe]

Wow. I am so sorry that you had to have that happen but it sounds like you made the right decision and it was a hard one.
Whenever you want to talk, we will be here.

[Borzoi mad]

So very sorry what a decision to have to make but you made the right one the quality of life had gone. Run free sweet girl:grouphug: :grouphug:
Take care

[sheplovr]

I am so sorry but you did the right thing honey. She is at rainbowbridge.com waiting for you.

[Karen]

Im so sorry hun, you did the right thing. She's at peace now and she will always be with you :grouphug:

[wolflady]

im so sorry. i know how you feel. i had a terrior mix and i had her for about 4 year or so and she got so bad that she couldnt see very good and she couldnt hear. some how she got off her chain and i never seen her again. i drove up and down on ever street i could think of trying to find her even if i found her laying on the side of the road. at least i could have buryed her. i didnt even find her collar. i think i cryed for a week straight. you have good memories of her hold on to them.

[copsmom]

I am very sorry for your loss.

[KCat]

I want to thank everyone for their kind words and good thoughts. Today was the first day I went out on my own and came home to an empty house. I wasn't looking forward to that moment and it was as tough as I expected. I still talk to her like she's here. I have to believe that our pets have souls. And that hers is at peace and happy.

I keep remembering the scene from "What Dreams May Come" when Robin Williams encounters his beloved childhood pet - a Dalmatian - in the afterlife. The first time I saw that scene I looked at Bayta and teared up to think of ever losing her. I'm still not sure why we choose to bring animals into our lives that we will outlive. And why we do it repeatedly. Why do we put ourselves through this? But then I think of the good life she had and of all the dogs out there in need of homes and love and I guess that's why. Because they are there and they need us, regardless of the pain we will suffer when they leave us.

Anyway - thank you all.
KCat